I'm writing this 2 months to the day after my sweet baby girl crossed the Rainbow Bridge ... and it's also my birthday. I thought I had navigated those deep waters of loss and had come to terms with her passing ... until today. Responding to birthday wishes, friends that I haven't connected with since before her passing were checking in to see how life was going since we last connected. I found myself reliving her final days as if they had just occurred, the wound still fresh.
My Cuddle Clone of my sweet Cubbie was staring at me from across the room. I remembered that I hadn't activated her breathing & heartbeat features since receiving her almost 6 weeks ago. I turned on the breathing box and removed the tab from the heartbeat box. I took a deep breath not knowing what to expect, then pressed the heart stickers on her heart and on her tail. My Cuddle Clone of my Cubbie quietly came to life: her heart was beating and chest moved with the breath of life.
What was a moment of grief turned to a moment of gratitude - a reminder that she is no longer suffering, I gave her a home and a life filled with love, and that while she's no longer physically here - her presence and her love remain a part of our lives.
2 months ago, she left us. But, it wasn't a "goodbye" ... it was a "see you later."
